Tonight is the new moon in Capricorn and, intuitively, it feels like the perfect time to embark on a new journey. Let me be completely honest – this isn’t my first rodeo when it comes to starting a blog on tarot and the intuitive arts, oh no. I’ve tried it a few times before in the past, but it just never stuck for me. Why? Well I imagine a lot of it was down to the fact that it simply wasn’t the right time on my path. There were lessons to learn, new energies to integrate and… a lot of limiting beliefs.
I had to work through a crippling fear of being seen and stepping into my identity as a tarot reader, intuitive and healer (I’m sure some of you can relate to this). My biggest fear: Who am I to dish out advice on these things? I’m not an expert and I certainly don’t consider myself to be one. I’m self-taught. I’m self-guided. I don’t have a prestigious lineage behind me. And fear number two? I was afraid people would judge me (lame, I know). I was terrified that if I were to put myself out there as a tarot reader, as someone drawn to the ‘woo’ side of life, people would discredit me or, worse still, fail to take me seriously in my day job as a journalist.
I’m telling you all of this to illustrate the insidious ways in which fear can creep into our lives, take hold and make us feel as though we’re less than. That our dreams are stupid. That we don’t deserve to follow what lights us up and brings us joy. Because tarot and spirituality are two things that I love and that make up a huge part of who I am as a person. Thankfully, despite my fear, my intuition kept pulling me back to this. My guides kept nudging me and here I am. Trying to stand tall in my fear and show up because showing up is the hardest part, isn’t it?
I don’t know what this blog, this site, will become but, for the moment, it’s a place for me to share my passion and hopefully empower you to take a chance on your own dreams too.